YMonday, June 16, 2008' 1:12 AM
hi humans....
sian, two days never talked to bro and mummy lur...
everyday lock inside my room, never see bro at home also...
maybe he went to friend's house for sleep over...
then mummy everytime so late come home... :/
yea, alone for two days. nobody talked to me too, im just like a dumb, talking to myself. x(
somehow i just can't accept the fact that my parents are divorced..
its a huge blow for me, im just running away from reality..
such a big house, but i feel like i'm the only one living in it...
i have a mother, but i feel like i don't have one...
i have a father, but it seems like hes dead...
this home was once full of warmth and love, what happened to it now? :(
its not a complete home now...
no, its not fit to be called a home...
why? why does it need to happen to me?
i cherished my family not lesser than other people... :''(
it makes me recap when i was 8, mummy and daddy kept screaming at each other,
then mummy used a chair to hit daddy,
infront of me and bro...
daddy's hand just bleed and bleed, staining the whole sofa...
if career is more important, why have children?
its not them who suffer, its me ok?!
i hate mummy and daddy,
i hate this house... :(
its thundering now, and i'm scared...
if it was the past, daddy will accompany me.
but now?
i have not seen daddy for 1 month...
ending here, FUCKING thunder...
i dont wanna cover my ears and post at the same time...
tata......
father's day...i have a daddy, but i can't celebrate with him... HAHAHAHAHA!! x(
Kim Jae Joong